“One day you’ll look back and see, that all along you were blooming.”
Morgan Harper Nichols
This time last year, I was going through a major shift in every area of my life. My last name had changed, my friendship circles began to change, my job situation was changing and not for the better either. I had no clue what I wanted to do and it seemed as though everyone around me had it together.
The change that was happening at that time, caused a lot of pain, confusion and insecurity. I questioned myself so much and I felt so stuck. As I prayed for the year ahead (2018) the Lord told me that it would be a year of ‘wholeness and God success’. (I can say 2018 has truly been that!)
I felt this pull from God to step out in faith and venture into the unknown with Him. I was SCARED to say the least and I definitely didn’t feel ready to do anything wild but I said yes anyway!
So, I finally did my first Coffee & Prayer Event in December 2017, an idea that I’d been sitting on for two years, TWO WHOLE YEARS people! The truth is, I was too afraid to start. I made excuses, if it wasn’t finances it was a question as to whether it was the right time. The vision was burning on my heart for those two years, but I didn’t respond to it because I also felt I needed to have certain things in place.
I’ve learnt that sometimes God doesn’t need your money, connections or anything else to make something He has proposed happen or successful. He just needs your obedience and obedience requires total faith.
“Your dreams are Gods dreams and He wants them to become a reality and unfold on the earth as much as you do.”
I can honestly say that the first Coffee & Prayer Event that I did, broke some things off of me. The theme was, ‘Breaking Your Limits’ and I believe that God was breaking everything in me that was limiting me, from becoming who He had called me to be.
That was just the beginning of the process that the Lord was taking me on. There was such a deep sense of inadequacy and insecurity within me that I had not fully confronted, the impact of past rejection caught up with me and God had to deal with that.
I had to be diligent in renewing my mind, I had to unlearn the negative things I believed about myself and align myself with His truth in the word. I had to see myself from a Gods eye view in order for me to evolve and do what He called me to do. Renewing your mind is so key, if you desire to move forward and accomplish anything. (Romans 12:1-2, Ephesians 4:23)
This is why I wrote my book Back To Life because I realised that there was power in Gods word to transform us and excel in way unimaginable. So as God was pushing me to pursue my dreams, He was also pushing me to address the issues of the soul. Each event and devotional I did this year challenged me in many ways, that shaped me to be better.
I didn’t know I was capable of doing half of what I managed to do this year. I saw it but I didn’t believe I could, so I never did. Listen, God will get you uncomfortable, to stretch you and allow you to see what you’re really made of and what you can do.
The confidence we so greatly desire and admire in others, is found more in the doing than it is in the knowing. You’ll never arrive at a level of confidence, it’s always growing as you step out.
Stepping out for you might be as simple as you speaking up more in group settings, to not only build your confidence but to make you realise that your voice matters. Stepping out doesn't always have to be big and grand, it just has to challenge the fear inside of you.
One of the greatest lessons I’ve learnt this year is; you will never know what you’re capable of until you step out. There is also nothing great that is accomplished in total comfort or without sacrifice.
One thing I know for sure is, I’m not the person I was this time last year. This year has been one of discovery. I thank God for the process, it has deepened my roots in Him. As 2019 approaches, I challenge you to step out of your comfort zone.
Are you too comfortable in that job role, relationship/friendship(s) or church?
What has God laid on your heart to do/start, that you’ve been avoiding?
What does God need to do in you, for you to flourish, thrive and become who He has said you are?
As you enter the New Year, write the vision, be prayerful and led by Him.
“There’s something new inside of you, that fear wants to contain.”